| I wont be around tomorrow. |
[Dec. 23rd, 2006|06:11 pm] |
I'll be spending the holiday tomorrow with my Mother. I'm hoping to have a great Christmas this year in spite of how previous years have been, however uneventful tomorrow will be.
My thoughts today have been centered around whether or not I want to ever catch someone in a lie again. The noble truths of the bliss of naivety do not extend to those who understand their shortcomings.
I talk in circles.
Anyways, I hope everyone has a great Christmas tomorrow and enjoys the time they're going to spend with their loved(lol) ones. |
|
|
| @Parker |
[Dec. 16th, 2006|08:45 pm] |
|
THE MYSTERY OF CATS IS STILL THE SAME MYSTERY OF CATS. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Dec. 14th, 2006|10:25 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Sambo Master - Tsuki ni Saku Hana no You ni Naru no | ] |
I did amazing in my classes this semester, I got 2 A's and 1 B. The B was in Astronomy and that was due to a lack of effort.
I'm really really excited.
I just noticed while going through my information posted in my user information that my Journal is over five years old. I remember being happy when I got my invite code to start posting here. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Dec. 11th, 2006|06:48 am] |
I cannot sleep.
There's way too much on my plate right now and I'm going absolutely nuts because of it.
I'm not sure if I wrote about it back when it happened but my Great Uncle David died and it hit me pretty hard. However, rather recently, my Great Aunt suffered a debilitating stroke and had to be put in intensive care with a screw in her head to bleed out the pressure. Unfortunately, for her and the rest of the family, yesterday she passed away sometime in the late afternoon close to 4:30pm. I usually handle death fairly well but these two people were very close to me and some really significant memories I have from when I was a child directly involve them. This loss pains me so much and it has had me wrestling in my bed tonight unable to sleep. Why am I writing about this now and here? Because I cant sleep and in a few hours I have to take my final exam in Astronomy and the only thing I'm worrying about is that I made a gigantic oath to my Great Aunt as a small child that I was unable to keep. Now she's gone. |
|
|
| I just divided by Zero, |
[Nov. 14th, 2006|07:31 am] |
OH SHI-
I've become too complacent with my current insomnia.
It's kinda funny, I sit here upset that I have insomnia yet I look at the 14+ empty cans of Vault and release a sigh of self defeat. |
|
|
| Fifty-two and one seventh.. |
[Oct. 16th, 2006|03:22 am] |
..is all that it took for me to be able to sleep without waking up sweating and in terror.
I thought of this as some divine nod but I wouldnt be so lucky.
Now isn't that ironic? Luck based upon faith.
Here's to you, Fifty-one and a six sevenths. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Aug. 8th, 2006|01:56 am] |
I found the answer that I have been looking for. The question I have asked and have often been asked is what I plan to do with my life beyond high school. I've been going to college with an undeclared major with the intent of becoming an English teacher. The reason I was undeclared for so long was because I was unsure of exactly what I needed to qualify for exactly what I needed to do. Apprehension is possibly an option but never an excuse.
Whether or not it was my own decision to be lazy about finding the information I needed I have found it.
(1) Plan One. A bachelor's or higher degree with an undergraduate or graduate major in English, or
(2) Plan Two. A bachelor's or higher degree with thirty (30) semester hours in English to include the areas specified below:
(a) Credit in English composition and grammar beyond freshman English,
(b) Credit in speech or oral interpretation, and
(c) Fifteen (15) semester hours in literature
This is my commitment to myself and the path I plan to follow in the coming years.
The self in which I will recognize as truth will only be attained at the end.
Luckily I am already well on my way to this goal. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Aug. 2nd, 2006|06:48 am] |
Being vague has always been a strong characteristic I've been able to express with great detail. A lack of detail is quite possibly the biggest detail of all. However at what point does focusing on too much detail cross the line? And in the other hand at what point is too little too much?
A room with no walls and and no boundries and the only exit is that in which you provide.
Sometimes you do all you can to break out and the only thing holding you back is the one thing you dont want to let out.
Association through feeling.
I am sorry torn. |
|
|
| So we said some stuff and here it is. |
[Jun. 26th, 2006|05:39 am] |
Cashew Paradigm: mother fucker I need to get a fucking huge bowl of chili thats so fucking spicey it makes my tongue bleed
Captain Raeburn: Where can we find that?
Captain Raeburn: Where's the chili store?
Cashew Paradigm: I dont know but like
Cashew Paradigm: we need to have a chili night or some shit sometime soon
Cashew Paradigm: spicey as fuck chili
Cashew Paradigm: maybe like
Cashew Paradigm: "oh fuck its chili it must be wednesday"
Cashew Paradigm: thats how badass the chili will be
Cashew Paradigm: it will be so awesome it will define the day it exists in
Captain Raeburn: Damn right. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[May. 1st, 2006|05:57 pm] |
There was an eviction notice on my door when I came home today.
Life is about to get interesting. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Apr. 28th, 2006|09:45 am] |
Today is the last day I will ever work at Fisherman's Landing.
For two years this place has been a gift, a luxury, a burden, and a curse.
I will miss her all my days. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Mar. 15th, 2006|08:49 pm] |
So I dont think I'll make it for most of Anime Express this weekend. My Uncle died today and the funeral arrangements are on Sunday and Monday. To accomodate I have to work Friday and Saturday night.
I'm so glad I got to see him one last time a few weeks ago at a family fish fry. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Mar. 6th, 2006|10:35 pm] |
So today was my birthday.
22 and counting. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 23rd, 2006|03:23 pm] |
So I spent some time in the sun and sand today. I was going to go out in the water but temperature and ring tones kept me from doing that.
The beach has been beautiful lately.
Still dont have a finished steps in which to go down to the beach, as you can see in that picture it sort of just ends. I'll be really glad when the temperature comes back up into the high 80's low 90's consistently so that I can start spending more time at the beach. I ran/walked about 3 miles yesteraday, was pretty stoked about that.
All in all shits been decent.
ONOZ |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 16th, 2006|01:21 pm] |
There arent enough upscale restaurants that serve huge burritos the size of a small childs arm at a price that is affordable to the average consumer.
Taco Bell does not count. Moes might, and it still holds true that there arent enough. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 14th, 2006|09:05 pm] |
One Million cool points for me today because of not spending it alone. Thirtyteen million cool points for me because the chick was hot too.
ALL LAUGHING OUT LOUD ASSIDE
In other news I still require more vespene gas and farms. |
|
|
| !! |
[Jan. 31st, 2006|06:19 am] |
Captain Raeburn: I want to be an orchestra when I grow up.
Cashew Paradigm: I want to be an all tin band, myself. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Jan. 23rd, 2006|12:51 am] |
So I'm drunk. Thats it. You got it all right here, the sumarization of this entire post. At this point I'm going to divulge the entirety of my belief in what I think I need.
I believe that the only thing in my life I need right now is a complete polar opposite. That is to say, I need something to challenge who I am as a person. No person can truly define themselves except through what they claim they arent. I'm not entirely saying that what I need right now is to find who I am. I think I have a general and rather firm grasp of whom I am. However I would say that I need a definition of whom I am in the manifestation of a ruler in which I can judge myself.
There is so much I miss because of whowhat I miss.
Honestly I dont know where I'm going with my road right now. I see a billboard driving and I miss it because I'm too interested in what the next billboard says. Road signs and signals fly past me and the only thing I see is the rear view mirror.
Emo Irrational thoughts plague me. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Jan. 16th, 2006|06:37 am] |
I think I'm going to retire from the Internet for a month. Then pick up a new job or something once my social e-security kicks in.
Seriously though - internet vacation thing again since I basicly hit all the points I needed here so that I can be up to par in certain things. Time to get non-ephemeral shit fixed.
Yeah....I really did go crazy.
HOT ROUTE |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Jan. 10th, 2006|10:29 am] |
Just a quick update.
Ding 60 - not ezmode.
My head is splitting, leaking and slowly recovering from a grueling fit of insanity. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Dec. 25th, 2005|07:22 pm] |
I was asked recently what my favorite Christmas was and what my least favorite Christmas was.
Today I will forever remember as the worst Christmas I've ever had. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Dec. 22nd, 2005|02:55 pm] |
Hey, Aaron, it was Tabula Rasa wasnt it?
Or prison :( |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Dec. 11th, 2005|07:36 am] |
|
Anyone want to go to Beef o Brady's in NSB with Russell and I today? No? Thats too bead :( |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Dec. 7th, 2005|05:35 am] |
The word for the day is Snigglesnoops.
Snigglesnoops! |
|
|
| This gets technical but its my fucking life, dick. |
[Dec. 5th, 2005|05:01 am] |
I have a Math Placement test to take at 8am and my body refuses to let my go to sleep. No matter what I do (already ran half a mile to pound sleep into me) I sit in bed and stare at the clock. I tried to not stare at the clock and close my eyes but apparently thats not on the list of things that work.
I had a really upsetting day today and I think it wired me to a point where I'm so tense and worried that its impossible for me to let it go until the events take place. I might take a bottle of nodoz with me to school so that I can keep myself wired. That is of course if my body stops being this wired in the next three and a half hours.
Oh...I probably should talk about why today was upsetting.
Tomorrow(today) my English Final is due. Not really a big deal though and it was a cake assignment. Russell seems to be having problems writing it though and cant colelct himself or throw away his ATTENTION DEFICIT long enough to pound out 500 more words. The writing assignment consists of taking a list of sources and information provided to you and massing it together in a collection which is supposed to combine together to form a featured magazine article for a local magazine. The topic specificaly was the Perseid Meteor Shower that would be occuring sometime soon and I'm to encourage people to attend and to inform them about the meteorites themselves.
Like I said it was pretty cake. And it helps that I had written about half of the essay by Saturday.
My computer though was unfortunate enough to have the battery come out of my motherboard in transit to work. Incase some of you dont know, the battery on the motherboard allows your motherboard to retain its bios settings (shit that tells your computer not to be gay) when the power is off. When I powered up my computer though the settings werent there. Infact all the settings to my motherboard were set to Null apparently and the computer had no idea how to operate.
Panic ensues.
Phonecalls went out and went unanswered. More panic when my computer refused to operate for a duration of 2 hours. Ben told me that I needed to get ahold of my motherboard manual so that I could figure out which jumper on my motherboard would completely clear the bios cache and allow the computer to start booting through its default bios settings. At this point things go through my mind and scenarios play out on a dark stage with an actor covered in blood left to die while an audience sits back in shock at the malicious and brutal attack they've witnessed. The Actor was my future and it had taken a mortal wound in the chest. Since I was at work I had limited options available to me. I made the decision to close the course with people on it enjoying their futures while mine was in perilous danger. I drove home and made mad dashes to and from locations in my house where my motherboard manual should have been. "Eureka!" I exclaimed, as I found a pair of socks I had lost. Under them though I had found my motherboard manual.
Back to work in a mad rush passing a cop eating (ironicaly) a donut.
The manual written in 4 languages, one of which I imagine to be Russian or the scripted language Dr. Light used to program Rockman. tells me exactly where the jumper is that needs to be switched to clear the Bios.
Done.
Power on.
Bios cleared.
Power off.
Jumper reassigned.
Power on.
The diagnostic lights then danced down...a countdown to my inevitable sanity drew near, and halted. In an effort to reach back with a hand of sobriety and smack some sense into me, my computer failed to boot.
More Phone calls.
Finaly one of my phonecalls to The Russell™ went through and he managed to answer it. I told him to get his ass to work with his computer so we could do something that would keep me from failing my English class. At this point I had feared the worse had happened, my motherboard being turned into a brick.
Russell arrived and we got to work breaking my computer apart and assessing what was wrong. We moved my hard drive out of my case and into his so that I could remove the files I needed should I require to move my person to a house where I could finish my project after work.
Sigh of relief. Though my problems were still not over. Utilizing the Internet(netternet) I found my way to the website that provides an extensive community full of people who use the same brand of motherboards that I use. As a side note I'd like to say if you're still reading this we need to go to dinner because you're a saint. Doing a search of the forum for "Boot Failure" I came across a thread with someone having a similiar problem that I was having. Reading through I kept coming across something to do with voltage values in the bios settings.
Click.
The light went off in my head that the main problem was that my computer had no idea what it should be doing, and as such one of the main problems is that it doesnt know that on my motherboard are 4 sticks of RAM. The default voltages are set to only run 2 sticks of RAM.
Power on.
The diagnostic lights then did their sultry dance again for me only this time the sultry dance went all the way down. "Beep" is the sound a computer makes when a computer is posting and ready to start loading your operating system after its done its diagnostics at startup.
Success. Heaven. Nirvana. A Future. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Dec. 2nd, 2005|04:35 pm] |
So it turns out that the reason I could not sign up for any of my classes was because my Placement test results from 2 years ago expired and they need to assess if I'm stupider or smarter than 2 years ago, but only with mathmatics.
I also have my English final due on Monday. So between now and say sometime 8am Monday I have to completely refresh myself to kindergarden through Trigonometry as well as write my English final and create the presentation.
Looks like I'll be fucking up numbers and creating magic in the process with words.
Here's hoping I can concentrate the rest of the weekend long enough to do this! |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Nov. 29th, 2005|03:49 pm] |
I've been having dreams about doing stomache crunches.
I cant fucking escape this shit in my dreams either.
Someday though the pay off is going to be so worth it and thats the only thing I'm going to be able to enjoy, the pay off in the distant future. A future I didnt have because of that cholestoral induced heart attack at the age of 30.
And now for a song. "Mamma made me a pimp" - Kennedy.mp3
::EDIT::
I weighed myself just now and found that I've lost 20 pounds since I've first started. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Nov. 28th, 2005|12:43 am] |
Cashew Paradigm: so I jacked up my bed
Cashew Paradigm: its on 40's
Captain Raeburn: Spinners?
Cashew Paradigm: we dont stop |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Nov. 26th, 2005|10:39 pm] |
Thanksgiving with the family.
Nobody can take a picture of me without me looking fat and drugged :( |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Nov. 25th, 2005|02:39 am] |
So because The Russell™ is A Steaming Pile of Shit™, I have decided to set the record straight on Scott Bakula.
Some of you may be familiar with a game I play that goes by the name of World of Warcraft. Some of you may not. For those of you that play the game you are aware of the fact that rogues are dastardly fellows! Sneaking around in stealth jumping through the air (An interesting fact first discovered by LJ user LWJoestar is that the stealth jump is the most powerful jump in the world.) as fast as they can (fast!) completely invisible. Rogues rely on their ability to dodge attacks and to be able to dish out some serious damage. Rogues do it from behind. For those of you that do not play the game, Two of the main attributes of a rogue is their agility and stamina. They are also well known for duel wielding some amazing weapons doing tons of damage.
What does this have to do with Scott Bakula being a rogue weapon? I'll tell you!
You see Scott Bakula is a very interesting person. Some of you remember him as Dr. Samuel Becket and more recently as the Captain of the U.S.S. Enterprise, Captain Jonathan Archer. In his roll as Dr. Sam Becket, on the show Quantum Leap (stealth jump), Scott Bakula attempted to backstab the timeline with the help of his good friend Al Calavicci and a super computer named Ziggy (Duel wielded).
How does this make Scott Bakula a rogue weapon?
With all the obvious reasons as to why he is a rogue weapon and all the coincidences he has with being a rogue himself there still leaves one defining reason why he is a rogue weapon.
Humans cant be hunters.
I rest my case. |
|
|
| To you |
[Nov. 25th, 2005|01:38 am] |
I stand by everything I said and mean it 100%
I stole that last one for soap opera reasons.
<3 |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Nov. 24th, 2005|12:54 am] |
Happy Thanksgiving, to those who wish to give thanks.
Everyone else gets asshole points. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Nov. 21st, 2005|08:04 pm] |
|
I'm sick as a dog right now and the only thing I want has nothing to do with me being sick. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Nov. 18th, 2005|03:08 am] |
A picture from my new phone.
STREET CRED MOTHER FUCKERS!
(As an aside note, mother fuckers fuck mothers.) |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Nov. 16th, 2005|12:05 pm] |
|
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEO ZOMG HIT 60! |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Nov. 15th, 2005|02:29 am] |
As reiterated from somewhere else, I've changed my phone plan and bought a new phone to go along with it.
The new phone plan replaces the old phone number so if you need the new number erase the old one and hit me up for the new one if you need it!
In case you're wondering I bought one of the newer model Motorola Razr V3's.
This mother fucker is slick and black. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Nov. 13th, 2005|06:37 pm] |
|
Hey Ben I found it. Know where it was? THE FIRST PLACE I LOOKED AND NOT THE LAST! HAH! |
|
|
| Yay for generous grandparents. |
[Nov. 13th, 2005|03:51 pm] |
My grandfather totaly helped me out of a very huge burden I've been freaking out about the last month or so.
I'm so disgustingly relieved. |
|
|
| Laugh. |
[Nov. 10th, 2005|03:33 pm] |
|
233-219 |
|
|
| 3 + 1 = 5 Doesnt add up? A lot hasnt. |
[Nov. 9th, 2005|03:39 am] |
So I left the internet for about a week, only kept the lines of communication open to a few people, and some that didnt care enough to try.
I used that time to push myself into a new schedule so that I can stop being a copout when it comes to my personal health.
Vacation Over. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Oct. 31st, 2005|12:26 pm] |
CLEANED MY ROOM FOR THE WIN!
And for those of you who are "in the know", it shocked Russell. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Oct. 29th, 2005|03:01 pm] |
|
Anyone know the recomended intake of calories per day? |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Oct. 23rd, 2005|04:40 pm] |
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) acidentphlosoph did this for me, so I pass it on to you...
Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random I like about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll name something we should do together
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me).
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow apropriate to you
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST! |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Oct. 22nd, 2005|12:20 pm] |
I have the internet again.
And gatzu's still a copout. |
|
|
| Because whatever that woman is right now told me to |
[Oct. 22nd, 2005|12:15 pm] |
THE RULES: List five songs that you are currently loving. It doesn't
matter what genre they are from, whether they have words, or even if
they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying right
now.
Post these instructions, the artists, and the songs in your blog. Then tag six other friends to see what they're listening to.
**EDIT, LW Joestar found the trackname for me for Track #1**
1)That one sick ass track that Desyn Massielo throws into some of his mixes. Some of you know what the fuck Im talking about.
Which is
In my Heart - Ethan
2) Digital Love - Daft Punk
3) Face to Face - Daft Punk
4) Jefferson Starship - Sarah
5) Mr. Brightside - The Killers
6) Beck - Beautiful Way
Tag, you're fucking it:
promodo117
captainraeburn
fstopfive
lwjoestar
mistressiris
wasabiguy |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Oct. 21st, 2005|06:26 pm] |
In recent news my Cable Modem took a giant leap for all techno kind today off a giant cliff into the land of sucking ass. I'm left disconnected for the next day or two so those of you who are avoiding me and not talking to me get their chance to show their face without me being around.
I'd like to apologize to Gatzu, I'm sorry you dont have a sorry excuse for being a dipshit.
To everyone else, you know where not to reach me. |
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
| |
|
|
